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Friday, 29 May 2009

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Wednesday, 22 April 2009

Untitled For The Hell of It

I am not sure just yet what the subject of this blog will be but one doesn't have to determine that until after finishing and of course I could always title this untitled and the subject would of course be up to the reader. Sort of. In a way the subject of any material is up to the reader, the viewer, and so on. It is the person's experience that brings them to a solid conclusion of what they believe an overall message or meaning towards a particular piece of art be it music, film, painting, sculpting or as I have chosen writing.

Lately, I have been exploring different ideologies within philosophy, religion, and general spirituality. Most of what I have gathered has told me to live by my own thoughts, feelings, and experience. It is told me that words are mere symbols to represent the experience, thoughts, or feelings. And in large I do agree but I have always had such a long and strong love for words. It has been a driving force within me to express myself and to learn.

And here as I have been so told to use words less and to understand and use my thoughts, feelings, and experiences as guilds to my life I would have to say that I am not sure what my thoughts, feelings, and experiences are telling me at this point. So many different ideologies and everyone of them as interesting as the next.

I believe in someway that ever single religion has given us a mere glimpse of the truth. For I believe it is true that no one else thoughts, feelings, or experiences could be your own just by hearing of them. One needs to think, feel, and experience to truly understand. This makes me believe that God is within us all. Already just waiting for the moment to be brought into our consciousness.

In all of this I am very fond of the idea that God is within us, he is us, we are him. There is said to be energy within us, collectively. This energy can never be created and can never be destroyed. I believe this force is or could be God. I have learned that on the deepest level of our being the only emotions we truly feel are love or fear.

All emotions are based off two. I have learned that thoughts and emotions actually have frequencies which can be measured. And while fear has a slow and broad frequency love has a rapid and small frequency and because of this utilizes more of our DNA. Perhaps opening more of our brain.

Einstein always said that one could not have science without religion and vice versa, stating "Science without religion is lame. Religion without science is blind." I am inclinded to agree. Science allows us all a slight glimps of what our faith could move.

I believe in love above all else and somehow this helps me get up everyday and sleep well at night. I understand the necessity of the bad in the world for one could not know good without it's opposite. Duality is all around us. It is not that it is even a choice to be but rather to be understood and then decided. You must understand your opponate to defeat him in any battle. Although I don't condone violence.

I believe perhaps now that I am at the end I could speak from my own experience and say that as long as one loves with all of their mind, body, and soul then the rest will somehow fall into place. There are so many things to learn about life but more often than not we are too busy to even be interested in our fate.

I would just like to send a message of "stop thinking about what you want in life and start thinking of what you want out of it". What is your ultimate goal. Ask yourself this everyday. Every single day and say it allowed, write it down, picture yourself in that. And I assure you a goal driven life is much more full or contented.

And to all of you I leave this quote!
"Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life. Aim above morality. Be not simply good; be good for something. "
-Henry David Thoreau

And we all know Thoreau was a man of experience!

Below I have am posting a few items of reference for the reader in case they would like to learn more about what I have been researching myself.

The Secret

The Complete Conversations With God

The Celestine Prophecy

Esoteric Agenda and Kymatica

For more information on any of the following or if you have something you think I might find interesting please feel free to comment or message me!

Thanks!

Monday, 13 April 2009

Infiniti Weekend Getaways Widget

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Tuesday, 07 April 2009

When I grow up...

I doubt I will ever grow up in this reality. I have too many ideas constantly swarming through my mind like bees. But without these bees that pollinate what becomes our thoughts we would not exist today. What I really want to do is a little bit of everything. I might just do that. For now I believe I am going to major in Creative Writing and minor in Philosophy. For it is expression in any sense that excites me and rocks me to my core. If I could inspire others that would be a dream come true. I would feel self actualized. My business card would read as so; Alexis- Creative writer, philosopher, photographer, and performer. Seek if you need something created, need to create, or need to be inspired. I only hope that all my dreams become realized so that I may see what other things upon which to experience in this life. Really all I truly aspire to do for the rest of my existence is to love and to return that love. For love is the greatest gift we have ever received and thus the greatest gift we could ever give! Okay so maybe my "business" card will read; Alexis Snider Lover of Life!

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

My Scariest Nightmare - The Uninvited Contest

My scariest nightmare involves me and my grandmother.
In my dream me and my grandmother were sitting in her house having a nice conversation. She's sewing and rocking back and forth in her chair and humming. Suddenly she turns to me and gives me the scariest heart wrenching look.
As I watch her face she is bringing something up with her arms. An ax! I freak out. Suddenly the entire room and her turn red. All the world around me is monotone shades of red and I am white. I start running away from here down what seems to be an endless corridor. I couldn't escape my grandmother chasing me with an ax.
I woke up in a panic. I still haven't told her this dream. I'm afraid to.

I just blogged about my scariest nightmare to enter The Uninvited Scariest Nightmare Contest for 1,000 credits. You can earn free credits too! Brought to you by The Uninvited - In Theaters January 30th.